My life would suck without you

Mandy, I was stupid for telling you goodbye.
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight.
I know that I've got issues.
But you're pretty messed up too.
Either way,I found out I'm nothing without you..

Don't give up just like that, You really mean alot to me.

In my heart, I never meant to do all those things to make you mad.

I wish sorry would cure everything, which it doesn't.

But i will make it up to you one day.

Mandy Sim, My dear, My Love, My Fiancee, My Everything.

I want you to know, I love you, I miss you and  I treasure our relationship.

Thank you for being part of my life

and I hope you will always be part of it.

And the reason..

I didn't do anything wrong but the blame is on me..
Sigh~You and your reason..scolding me and say you won't be mad if I do that?But when I 1st told you about it..look at what you reply me..

You don't even care at all even if I'm mad..You still do what you want to do,what i say means nothing at all..
Only waiting for me to apologize and admit that I'm wrong eventhough I'm not..
Unconsiderate....

Sorry for..

Like real that i would do that to you..
You  should know how I feel when i reply just like how you replied to me..
I really wanted to do it back to you but I zuo bu xia..
Not in a mood since yesterday till now..
Good bye.. Take care.. I love you~

..When you read this, Hope you know what to do next..

..When you know what to do next, find me..

..Saying sorry or asking me not to be mad..

..Impossible..

..But..

..I want you to know..

..I still love you more than yesterday..

When it comes to me.. I'm..

Now your so not sleepy or tired when it comes to going out with your friends..
Only when it comes to accompanying me, your saying your sleepy and tired..
Thanks alot.. Means alot to me..
Hope you have fun..
I don't want to say so much.. since it means..
Nothing to you also..
Good bye..

Where you go..

I'm awake, thinking and wondering how are you doing over there..Hope your alright my dear!

Maybe I have too much fun till I kinda lost it..
I feel guilty that I'm not there to accompany you and even worst that i did not answer your call..
So sorry, my dear..It will never happen again.. won't blame you if your mad at me eventhough your not..
So sorry again, for coming home late and not listen to you..

You are so special to me..
Only you can make me fill my life with happiness and laughter..
U are the best and the only one I love the most..

Sleep tight and sweet dream my dear..Hope there's no more bumpy ride ahead..
Oh oh, will sleep now before you shen qi me.. Hehe.. Wan Ann!!

MANDY SIM, I LOVE YOU !!

..Pls do take care of yourself..

..Will wait for you to come back..

If there's a shooting star..

Months have pass..
You should understand by now..

Wish you can read my mind..
I'm tired of saying things over and over again..
Sad that sometime those things you said is not what i expected to hear..
Happy that your not hiding things from me..

I'm lost.. confuse.. speechless..
Someday, you will know why I've changed..

Thinking of you each day and night, wondering what will happen tomorrow..
Only if your by my side, I'll give you the happiness you need.

But hearing you said "Reading those letters will remind me that someone still loved me"..
Eventually, I've no idea on what to reply to you..

Wondering what should I say to you?
It's ok? It's alright? I'm fine? Obviously, I'm not.. But it got me thinking and..
Thinking why do you still keep something that will remind you about the past when your with me?
Hoping that it was me who wrote you those love letters..

Unfortunately, It's not me..

Fine by me..
Only if you will spare some thoughts for me..
Really will make this relationship better..
Everytime, there's something which make us argue..
Very small matter, becomes a big matter..
Ends up both party not happy and hearing you said those words when we argued..
Really does hurts alot till a scar is left behind..

>If I'm the one who said and do those.. I wonder how will you feel<

 

..Does feel better after blogging..