If there's a shooting star..

Months have pass..
You should understand by now..

Wish you can read my mind..
I'm tired of saying things over and over again..
Sad that sometime those things you said is not what i expected to hear..
Happy that your not hiding things from me..

I'm lost.. confuse.. speechless..
Someday, you will know why I've changed..

Thinking of you each day and night, wondering what will happen tomorrow..
Only if your by my side, I'll give you the happiness you need.

But hearing you said "Reading those letters will remind me that someone still loved me"..
Eventually, I've no idea on what to reply to you..

Wondering what should I say to you?
It's ok? It's alright? I'm fine? Obviously, I'm not.. But it got me thinking and..
Thinking why do you still keep something that will remind you about the past when your with me?
Hoping that it was me who wrote you those love letters..

Unfortunately, It's not me..

Fine by me..
Only if you will spare some thoughts for me..
Really will make this relationship better..
Everytime, there's something which make us argue..
Very small matter, becomes a big matter..
Ends up both party not happy and hearing you said those words when we argued..
Really does hurts alot till a scar is left behind..

>If I'm the one who said and do those.. I wonder how will you feel<

 

..Does feel better after blogging..